Coho's grown her own mind. She's an adult dog now, she doesn't need me anymore. And she showed me that today when she escaped from her harness and ran away. I called for her three different times when I caught sight of her. She didn't come once. She was so happy to be free that she completely ignored me. I let her run on her own every day. I feed her, love her, spend thousands of dollars on the very best for her. And today she said she didn't need it anymore. I spent all day crying, running around the village trying to bring her home. I finally watched her go around a corner, snuck the other way, and captured her. She faught the entire way back to my cabin. I wasn't hurting her- I had her picked up nicely, but it didn't matter. She didn't love me anymore. When I got inside I was so frustrated I picked her up by the skin on the back of her neck and threw her down. Then I knelt beside her and pushed her as hard as I could. Immidiately she rolled onto her back and whimpered- showing her submissiveness. And I cried. It's the first time in my entire life I've ever laid a hand on my dog like that. And it broke me into a million peices. But her absence of love for me today broke my heart even more.
